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well lookey here i've been able to scrape a bit of time together. so, a lot has changed recently in my life kinda sorta. i shaved this morning for the first (proper) time in 3 months and it really takes the years off. i was scared to go to the bar tonight.
i quit the corner house because i was sick of dealing with all the shit there, and people seem to generally be following my lead! i made a couple of good buds there and many more nice acquaintances. a girl called kelly gave me some radiohead cds, she's totally lovely. a total dude called owen has handed his notice in and gary from the kitchen has already gone. seems to me that all the coolies are upping and outing. my crazy guitar friend who plays on northumberland street (you may know who i'm talking about, harmonica guy, funny glasses) said he was in the corner house and someone said the place was a lot more boring without me, that made my day because i was having a bad day because the manageress at my new job is a real handful.
i have many problems with her. the first is that she carries a disgraceful abundance of sexism. i don't care how badly you've been treated before, it doesn't mean you can treat every male you meet with a slightly lower amount of respect. passive feminism and campaigning for equal rights are two entirely different things. she was whinging yesterday to the delivery bloke about how i have no respect for her. it's a two way street right? if i've got it all wrong then please tell me to shut up, but she seems to treat me really stupidly because i'm a boy and classically we're supposed to be stupid and manish. well i'm not like that. i'm fragile. and i will take every bad thing you say about me entirely to heart.
also everything she says/does is obviously paramount. she goes mental on her ego which i guess is fair enough, she's been at that company 2 years longer than me and its unsurprising the way she is. but i notice the days when she's off and i'm the manager everything seems to be a lot easier to do.
but she changes minute to minute! she can embarrass you in front of a whole shopful of people and then she can be you best friend a few minutes later. it's a horrible girly trick and its not cool. it just makes me schizy
unfair sexism bitch over.
2 weeks ago to the day (14 days and 1 hour ago in fact, or something like that) i got on a train that went to leeds and there i wandered around for a whole day. people actually thought i was crazy to do that but i just needed a change of city. its a nice city. it was full of new experiences. i got punched in the face for the first time ever! round the back of a church. its all about new experiences thought isnt it. apart from that i just bought some cool clothes and loads of music. nothing special cos i wasn't with anyone.
newcastle/heaton etc. in general is fairly cool. i'm surrounded by nice people who always seem pleased whenever they see me. especially on out-and-about sort of things. another cool thing is i keep bumping into people i've made sandwiches for! unfortunately not the good people though. there was this one amazing girl who i got on great with for the time i saw her but she's never been back in the shop....must have gone back to heaven.
my flatmate luke scares me a bit. i don't think he likes me very much. have you ever had a relationship with someone where you know that both of you are decent human beings but you have nothing in common? well thats sort of what luke and i have going on. except he says some really stupid fucking stuff and i dont know him well enough to just tell him to shut the fuck up. urgh! the frustration. i dunno what to do there really. i can't be arsed to try and have a conversation with him because he's so vague and sometimes doesn't even bother speaking back. too much pot is his problem. i really think he's going insane. maybe he's taking me with him! oh no!